Present: My mind was already cranking predefined emotions through it as I placed my right foot on the 15 inch box; frustration, fear, and defeat.
Flashback: three weeks ago I received an email stating I had won a one month membership to CrossFit Bona Fide (www.crossfitbonafide.com). The idea of doing crossfit was crazy but then again so was hiking the AT. I had to start somewhere and better to start close to home than halfway up a mountain in GA.
Present: Step Ups were on the board today for our workout. The last time I’d tried to do Step Ups, three months ago, my knee had complained and crackled, and it was only a 7 inch rise. So tonight it was understandable to feel a sense of defeat before I’d even begun.
When presented with a challenge I rarely back down. On the count of three I took all the work and knowledge of the past two weeks and drove my foot down, pulling my knee back and tensing my glutes to bring my hips into alignment. I was standing on top of the world in that moment!!! I had stepped up 15 inches with no pain and enough effort to know I’d had to work to get there but I was solid! All told I did over 30 Step Ups on my right leg that night – I felt as strong at the end as when I had started (for anyone who has gone through an injury you know just how exciting this is – to not feel the fatigue).
Until recently I had been questioning just how smart my decision was to attempt the AT. My knee was only a part of my concern. When I was injured I went from a highly active life style of climbing on a high ropes course day in and day out to sitting on a couch… abrupt change in my physical activity caused there to be drastic change in my physique. As I push myself in crossfit I am excited to see a change in my muscle tone already, just two and a half weeks out. I am feeling VERY grateful for the trainers who work with me to adapt exercises and help me push forward to meet my own goals! This preparatory work will make the difference of hiking the AT and enjoying the completion of AT.
The last things which seem to be making this a truth rather than an idea: Posted apartment as available for Sublet! Started purging my belongings (If I haven’t used them in three months I don’t need them)! Started the purchase of my gear!